“If i was always thinking about winter when it’s fall, then i wouldn’t notice that the leaves were changing colors. Dont spend your time focusing on what could be or what will be… because then you’ll miss everything that already IS.”—
I was babysitting a little boy named Finley last week, he’s 3 years old and he is one of the sweetest boys i’ve ever known. We watched Snow White and Elmo and before we knew it, it was 8pm which means it was his bed time. I brought him into his room, put his pajamas on him, read him a book and said “Goodnight Finley!” As i was walking away, headed back to the family room i heard him faintly say “Leah, will you lay with me for a little while?”I questioned him and said “You want me to lay down with you?” and he said “Mhm.” So i walked back over to his bed and laid down with him. I laid there for about 5 minutes and he reached out and touched my face, i assumed it was to make sure i hadn’t left. He turned around and about 5 minutes later, thinking he was asleep, i got up and walked towards the door again. As i was shutting the door i heard him say “… I love you.” and with my heart melting i said “I love you too.” and shut the door.
You’re probably wondering where i am going with this and maybe where i am going is predictable and a little cliche, but what i realized when i was laying there with him is that he was fully content in that moment. He didn’t ask for anything else, he didnt want me to sing a song or read another book… all he wanted was for me to lay with him and that was enough. I spent the night with Finley doing what he wanted to do, trying to keep him happy and please him and at the end of the night all he wanted was for me to lay with him. I imagine that’s how it is with God sometimes. We set aside time for Him to do what He wants us to do rather than fulfill our own selfish desires. We spend quality time with Him trying to please Him by reading His Word or praying or worshipping. I think it is important to have those things in your relationship with God, but sometimes i think he just wants us to be still and to lay with Him. He doesn’t need us to put on a performance and try our best to make Him happy, all He wants is to be with us, He just wants us to lay down with Him for a while. And i believe in those moments, He is content with us. And just like in the story i told, i imagine that when we are done laying with God and we are ready to leave and do our own thing again, he whispers to us “… I love you” as we are walking out the door. He still loves us, even when we leave.
I like to shock people, probably not in the way that you are thinking, but i do. I like to be different and ultimately difference brings shock… it surpises people. I like to make people wonder why i’m different and what sets me apart from the rest of the world. I am well aware that i am nothing more than an ordinary girl, but it is God that sets me apart and inspires me to be my own person, separate from the world.
You the know the phrase “Kill them with kindness”…? I like that phrase, but i like to change it to "Shock them with kindness." Kindness shocks people. Doing anything for someone else other than just looking out for yourself, shocks people. It’s terrifying to me that we live in a world where this is the case, but since this is the case, i like to shock people with kindness. And shock them with positivity. And shock them with genuine concern for others. And shock them with love. And shock them with selfless acts.
"Love is the only shocking act left on the planet." - Valentine’s Day
That’s what the world has come to. Nothing shocks people anymore except showing love. Hating others doesnt shock people, being inconsiderate doesnt shock people, adultery doesnt shock people, having abortions doesnt shock people, murder doesnt shock people, rape doesnt shock people, overdosing doesnt shock people…. love shocks people. Something is extremely wrong with that. But since that’s how it has become, then i will continue to shock people.
I love asking the clerk at the store how they are doing and see them be shocked with my curiousity. I love saying please and thank you to the employee at Starbucks and see them be shocked with my politeness. I love opening the door for people and see them be shocked that i care. We should all strive to shock people, to surprise them. We should all strive to be different. The reaction you get from others is well worth it :)