I feel like life for me is either really hectic and crazy busy or that it is slightly boring with a lot of free time. Right now in my life, it’s the first one and it will be like that for the next 9 months atleast. It scares me when i think about working around 50 hours a week for that a long amount of time, but then i get excited when i remember WHY i am working this many hours. I have never wanted to be one of those people whose work is their life, i always say that i work to live i dont live to work. Now that most of my time is work, i have to be careful to make time for the things that were important to me before… things like reading my Bible and writing in my journal, doing photography and maybe even taking a class to get more advanced, being kind to people i come in contact with no matter how exahausted i am from my work schedule and i still try to find time to work on my poetry book that i’m writing, that i’ve been writing for 6 months now… haha It’s taking a while but it will be worth it in the end.
What makes the 50 hours a week not seem so bad? The fact that i love my job ofcourse. I love working with children more than anything. At my job at the school i tutor kids, who mean so much to me and then outside of that i babysit/nanny for children that i love! But more than me loving my job, i am working this much because i have a goal. I want to move to LA in summer of 2011, that was the plan this last summer but it didnt happen because i didnt save enough money… not even close to enough. So with working this much, i’ll be saving up for a dream that has been important in my life for a very long time, which makes the crazy schedule and exhaustion suddenly worth it. I have a goal and even though the end result seems far away, i am working toward it now… so in the midst of all this work i find joy knowing that i am doing something that matters with my life, even if it doesnt look like that right now… i’m on the way there, which is a big part of reaching any goal. :)