be the change.

Jesus, 
You’re the Hero of my story and the rythm in my song
Without You, i wouldn’t have the strength that makes me strong
You’re the voice behind my words and the beating in my heart
In the puzzle of my life, You’re every intricate part
You’re the soul behind my thoughts and the passion in my dreams
You’re the lead character of my life, You’re the star of every scene
You’re the music in my head and the sunshine in my day
You’re the blue in my sky and the path in my way
You’re the friend that never leaves, You’re the courage when i’m brave
When you had to choose Your life or mine, i’m the one You saved
You’re the talent in my art and You’re the rhyme in this poem
You’re the hope that keeps me holding on, You’re my peace, You’re my home

I believe in having courage when you’re scared, being brave when its hard, having faith when things feel hopeless, being strong when everyone expects you to fall apart. I believe in these things not only because it helps us become more experienced, stronger and wiser but also because if we arent afraid to do these things with our lives, we might give someone else the strength to do something amazing with their own life.

If you work up the courage to confront someone or tell someone how you feel and they dont react the way you would have liked, its okay, dont regret it, be proud of yourself and know that you having the courage to do that could help someone else have the courage they are looking for. If you dont want to do it for yourself, do it just for the sake of helping someone else believe in themselves. Life is beautiful, dont waste it wondering what if…

I use to be the type of person, who would get upset and hurt if someone that i enjoyed talking to and someone that i cared about didnt care about me in the same way. And by use to, i mean a couple months ago. This is a new thing i’m learning.. and that new thing is, so what if they dont ask me how i’m doing everytime we talk. At first it would hurt me, i didnt understand why they didnt want to know about my life the way i wanted to know about theirs and then i realized how incredibly selfish that is.

Yes, i think you need a few quality people in your life that do care about you and your plans and your days, but with the other people i come in contact with, its okay if they dont want to ask about my day or ask me questions about my past or my likes and dislikes. I dont care anymore! Not in a rude way, in a genuine way, because i’ve realized that i am not here on this earth for myself, i am here for them, i am here for you.

So i will continue to be the person that listens to others and asks people how theyre doing and encourages them when they need it, even if they dont do the same thing for me, because its not about me. I dont need someone to be interested in me for me to be interested in them. I love everyone, therefore i’m interested in everyone even is they dont feel the same about me. Its a hard lesson. Its trying to teach myself selflessness, which is a nearly impossible thing to do in my life. I honestly dont think i will ever be completely selfless because my flesh wants to be selfish and i have to fight that… but i will continue to remind myself that others matter more than me. That i am here for them. And it makes it all okay. :)

I wrote a poem, this one is for all those who bully others… and its from everyone who has ever been bullied.

Those harsh and piercing words you speak make you feel like you are tall
But on the outside looking in, I can see you are so small
All you have learned to do in this life is tear down the helpless
What you’re doing isn’t working, who are you trying to impress
By making others feel weak, that’s exactly what you’ve become
You can’t feel the hateful words you say because you are too numb
You’re numb from the walls you put up to hide behind who you are
And if you do not tear down those walls, you will never go far
I imagine you hurt others, because someone has hurt you
But being mean isn’t the answer after being hurt too
Cause pulling people down with you won’t bring you any higher
And telling others they’re worthless only makes you a liar
When you try to rip others apart, it brings you to the ground
While you’re down there, look up and you’ll see no one else is around
Because every time you hit us, we come back even stronger
and every time you try to hold us down, we stand up longer
Even through the pain you have caused me, I only wish you well
I’d never hope for you to fail the way you’ve given me hell
I can see behind your vacant eyes and tough exterior
I pray you know your rudeness doesn’t make you superior
I hope you can find your way in life the way I have found mine
and I hope you don’t tear others down just to make you feel fine
If you love others, you will feel in your heart that they love you
Because it turns out that loving others means that you’re loved too
 

I am sick of people fighting bullying with bullying. Such a contradiction. Fight bullying with LOVE. And KINDNESS. 

I truly believe that TOGETHER, we can MAKE A DIFFERENCE. 

I’m a dreamer. I can’t help it. Thats how i’m wired. I dream. I dream big. Some call the dreams i dream “impossible” or “unrealistic” but i still dream.

If my dreams come true, then i’m happy and i’m a believer and i love life!

If my dreams DONT come true, then i’m happy and i’m a believer and i love life!

Because at the end of the day, i would have rather DREAMT and FELT something than to never have dreamt or felt anything at all.

Dreaming is what keeps me going.

Dreaming keeps me motivated.

And if those dreams don’t come true… i continue to dream. And i always will.

Because i will always believe that what you call “impossible” is actually POSSIBLE.

And thats enough fulfillment within itself. 

I met someone new today, i was told AFTER i met them and after i had already left where i was with them that they are going through a hard time right now and is in need of encouragement. When i was told that i thought “Man, i wish i knew that before i met them so i could have encouraged them and been especially kind and sincere.” And then i realized… that’s how i should be all the time. 

I’ve always love the quote “be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle.” i love that quote because it teaches us that we dont know someone elses life, we dont know their intimate secrets and struggles and we dont know everything theyre going through, so we should be kind because we might be the only kind thing in their life that day. Hearing this quote and liking it, is a lot easier than acting on it.

I think of myself as a generally nice person, but at the end of every day i wish i would have been nicer. I wish i would have said an extra hello, or given more hugs or smiled at more strangers or asked one more person how theyre doing. We can ALWAYS do better. I can always do more. We should never reach a place where we say “Well, ive learned all i can learn, i’m never gonna get any better than this.” We should be constantly and consistenly learning and growing and stretching ourselves. 

I was sad today when i realized that i wasnt as kind as i could be or as genuinely encouraging as i could have been to this new person i met without knowing they were going through a hard time. I want to be kind and nice and compassionate and loving WITHOUT knowing every detail of someones life. I want to do it because its the right thing to do, and because being nice to others makes me happy. I dont ever want to say “I wish i knew they were going through a hard time so i could have been nicer.” I should always be as nice as i can be in that moment. I should always be encouraging whether i think the person needs it or not. 

We should be kind no matter what we feel like!

Dont like the way your life is going? Dont like where you’re headed? Well however your life is and wherever you’re headed, is YOUR FAULT. Sorry if that sounds brutal, but i think its a lesson WE ALL HAVE TO LEARN. The good news? Even though YOU are the reason your life is the way it is, you can CHOOSE to CHANGE it.

In high school i was an extremely depressed teenager. If you know me now, you’re either reading this thinking “That is not possible” or if you knew me in high school you’re probably thinking “She did a good job at hiding it.” Because i did. I hated my life. It hurts my heart to say that now, because i can’t believe i didnt realize all i had then, but i did, i hated my life. I thought i was cursed with an unfortunate life and horrible family. Crazy, right? Considering how PASSIONATE i am about life now and how much i LOVE my family. I just felt sorry for myself. I was insecure and i went to school and faked it everyday. I faked happiness, which seems so SILLY now because i realize i could have CHOSEN HAPPINESS all along. 

Our life, the way each day goes for us, the way we feel at the end of the week… it is our CHOICE. It is up to me if i have a good day tomorrow or a bad day. I could get into a fender bender tomorrow, that doesnt necessarily mean i have a bad day unless i let that CHANGE my attitude into an angry mood. OR i could choose to be happy that nothing worse happened. 

We are constantly faced with choices, over and over, hundreds of choices a day, for some people it is COMFORTING knowing it’s our choice how our day goes, for others they dont like it, because they dont want to make an effort. Positive choices do take more effort, but they make for a more rewarding and purpose filled life. I promise, It’s worth it.