be the change.

A few years ago, perhaps less than that, I used to be bothered by the fact that my friends and acquaintances would no longer invite me to their parties. I would always respectfully decline because i have never been drawn to the “party scene”, alcohol and empty conversations dont really tempt me. They knew i loved them no matter what, whether they went to parties or not, i would not write someone off for that. We all have flaws and weaknesses, just because the “party scene” isn’t mine, doesnt make me any better than anyone, and i hope i helped them to believe that. But for some reason i thought that even though i would always say no, it would still be nice of them to ask me, so i could feel included. Now i realize that doesnt matter, whether they invite me or not i will never feel included because i won’t ever go, and i finally became okay with that. I like that they no longer invite me, it’s not necessarily because they don’t want me there (well, maybe it is… haha) but i think its because they know me and they know that i won’t go. I used to think they were rude for not asking but now i realize whether intentional or not, theyre respecting me and my morals and values. I’m finally okay with being that person they don’t invite to the parties… because that also makes me the person who is trying my best to live to my potential.