So many of us let our insecurities get the best of us. We strive to change them so that others will like us, or stop judging us, or so we’ll feel better about ourselves in their eyes. But i don’t think that will ever fix the insecurity, if we’re just fixing it for THEM, so THEY won’t make fun us or make us feel bad about ourselves then i dont think that really fixes anything. It’s not about changing the things about us that we feel insecure about, its about accepting them and realizing that we all have differences and things that make us unique. If we kept changing the parts of ourselves that other people were judging us for and making us feel less than for… we would never stop changing. People will always be able to find something they don’t like about us, that doesn’t mean we need to change, that just means they’re insecure. It’s an awful cycle. The only way we will ever learn to be happy is to accept those things that we can’t change and not let others judgments make us or break us. We are who we are whether they like it or not. The moment you let others opinions become more important than the opinion of Jesus, you are unconsciously deciding to let other people choose who you become. Jesus thinks youre beautiful and talented and special and strong. He believes in you and has faith in you and loves you endlessly. THAT is the opinion that matters because that opinion is truth.
I want to live here someday. Not just for the sake of living here and not just for the incredible weather, beaches, mountains, trees and beautiful city building lights. Originally i had always wanted to move here because i want to be an actress someday, someday soon hopefully. That was the goal, that was the reason i wanted to live in this city and move away from my family, even though i don’t want to leave them. Now the reasons have changed, well not changed, but have been added on to. I still want to be an actress but i also want to change this city. Ultimately i figured if i ever became a well known actress, i could change the city and the world through the influence the people in the entertainment industry have. That is still something i want to do, but now i want to change the city no matter what, whether i become an actress or not. I keep telling God that I’ll be okay if His plans for me aren’t to be an actress, which is hard for me to say, but i want to do what He wants me to do and I’m sincere when i say that. So, even if He has different plans for my life other than being an actress, i would still like to affect this place. Not for my glory or to be acknowledged or praised in any way, i simply want to remind them what is most important, because so many seem to have forgotten. Everywhere i go i want to infect people with kindness and love and I’m excited to infect this city soon! :)